Now You Think That I...

Right.



I would introduce myself but that would make this Blog completely pointless as I want this as anon as possible.



Many reasons for this.

The thrill of people reading this and not knowing who I am is one. One other is the fact that I am training to be a nurse and confidentuality is needed [read: I may possibly talk about either upsetting or funny patients/incidents] All I am going to say is that I leave in the Cambridgshire area (England for any or our international readers) and that I shall be known to you as B. The third is I shall be brutually honest and I am guessing there are just a few people out there that would not like to read what I am writing.

The reason I am doing this is because... you could say... I like the feeling of being immortal. and sharing my life as a whole. I just want to share a little piece of what is me. As I find great difficulty in doing that in real life...

The segment that pulled me into doing this is the following... an extract from my own hand written journal:-

"Sometimes you make desisions in life and think you got it wrong. Fell in love too fast, or don't let yourself fall in love at all. Take too many risks, or just don't bother taken any at all. I have figured now is not to regret. But to appreciate. Because these things you choose to do, set out a path. And this path leads to a bigger picture. So regrets or not, they are life changing all the same. So why not appreciate every life changing detail? Appreciate and surrender into the pain and sorrow. Embellish in the happiness and euphoria.

Face the fears. Run. Fast. Forgive the ex's... It makes no difference as they have lost you anyway. And now they are a part of you, they will effect your decisions. Let people have that effect. But not control. Remember - You are nothing without the people around you. And they are nothing without you.

You have changed someone's life . For good nor bad. Just change. You will have effected the way they think. And they will have done the same to you. Jealousy is natural. Being Obbessive is not. You will always want to be the better man. The strongest will survive.

Socialisation has made it easier to accept failure. But yet failure is a way to feel alive. Pain - It has given us some of our greatest literature. Music would be nothing without the poetry behind it. Go with the gut feeling, even if it takes you to the other side of the world. You can always come back.

We live in the generation of the rewind button. Facelifts are all the rage. Liberate.

Throw those paddies, but let them go just as quick. Realise the friends worth keeping, and the aquaintances that are not. You may not be their true friend but they were never yours. Be sensible at the right times - but totally silly the rest. Laugh as often as possible. Love, even if you have no idea of the meaning of the word. Don't lie, they all come out in the end. Remember- the past is the past for a very good reason. And only the lucky can make it into your future.

Move forwards. Don't stand still. Never judge, they could of been the the most wonderful person you never gave yourself a chance to meet.

Make your life, a life that is really worth living."

For now. That is it from me. Til next time. B✿