No more fat men stuck in chimneys.

Happy boxing day.









The day of boxes and all that.









Christmas isn't my favourite time of year I must say. I find it the time you have to gather with a bunch of people you don't normally give two pennies about [ read : my "extended" family ], listen to music you can't stand and break a very good diet that follows weeks of correction.









No. Not my favourite time at all. This is because the basic logic behind christmas has vanished. And No. I am not talking about the birth of Christ. I'm talking about the fact that it is a time to really appreciate the people around you and the things you have got and be thankful.









Yet my [half] brother and sister believe it is what people give you and what people do for you.









The Best two things about my christmas this year :









- I spent the night of it with my stunning mum and her partner who is practically my dad.




- My friend bought me a signed picture of Chuck Bass [yummy]. Oh yes. That is a fantasy I would love to get my hands on =]

If you have never seen "Gossip Girl" and you are female I suggest you get your hands on it for pure lust factors trust me.

And just to add another lust factor, I have seen that new film out, Twilight. A film has never had such a reaction on me! I have even bought the books. I have seen it twice at the cinema and am still trying to find excuses to go again. You could say this is an obbession. And you may be right.

But there is something about vampires. That confidence they give out. The strength and power. Amazing. (Yes I know they are not real. this doesn't stop me wanting... If there was one way I would choose to die... well...) I shall lengthen on that idea maybe another day...

I normally fall crazily for Vampire films at their best... Interview with a Vampire, Queen of the Damned etc.

But this one... well this one was truly stunning. and shall keep me happy oh I say... at least intil the second film comes out. The main character... Edward Cullen, is played by this beautiful man.. and if he doesn't sway you to love him... I have no idea who possibly could...

And yes kids. I am going to the Convention. See You There?

B x~x

50,000

Ok. So I promised myself I would write in this everyday. but you get mind block. You know?

Plus I'm being totally miserable for no reason at all.

Random fact though, did you know a novel has to be 50,000 words to be classed as a novel? how odd.

I've always wanted to write a novel, maybe when this blog gets to 50,000 I will just try and publish it. see how it goes. Its not quite an Anne Frank novel though is it?

Do you ever get that feeling that you are entirely in the way of life. Like someone put you there to BE in the way? Like those hideous wet floor signs you find everywhere. Especially in MacDonalds. I constantly trip over them.

Now You Think That I...

Right.



I would introduce myself but that would make this Blog completely pointless as I want this as anon as possible.



Many reasons for this.

The thrill of people reading this and not knowing who I am is one. One other is the fact that I am training to be a nurse and confidentuality is needed [read: I may possibly talk about either upsetting or funny patients/incidents] All I am going to say is that I leave in the Cambridgshire area (England for any or our international readers) and that I shall be known to you as B. The third is I shall be brutually honest and I am guessing there are just a few people out there that would not like to read what I am writing.

The reason I am doing this is because... you could say... I like the feeling of being immortal. and sharing my life as a whole. I just want to share a little piece of what is me. As I find great difficulty in doing that in real life...

The segment that pulled me into doing this is the following... an extract from my own hand written journal:-

"Sometimes you make desisions in life and think you got it wrong. Fell in love too fast, or don't let yourself fall in love at all. Take too many risks, or just don't bother taken any at all. I have figured now is not to regret. But to appreciate. Because these things you choose to do, set out a path. And this path leads to a bigger picture. So regrets or not, they are life changing all the same. So why not appreciate every life changing detail? Appreciate and surrender into the pain and sorrow. Embellish in the happiness and euphoria.

Face the fears. Run. Fast. Forgive the ex's... It makes no difference as they have lost you anyway. And now they are a part of you, they will effect your decisions. Let people have that effect. But not control. Remember - You are nothing without the people around you. And they are nothing without you.

You have changed someone's life . For good nor bad. Just change. You will have effected the way they think. And they will have done the same to you. Jealousy is natural. Being Obbessive is not. You will always want to be the better man. The strongest will survive.

Socialisation has made it easier to accept failure. But yet failure is a way to feel alive. Pain - It has given us some of our greatest literature. Music would be nothing without the poetry behind it. Go with the gut feeling, even if it takes you to the other side of the world. You can always come back.

We live in the generation of the rewind button. Facelifts are all the rage. Liberate.

Throw those paddies, but let them go just as quick. Realise the friends worth keeping, and the aquaintances that are not. You may not be their true friend but they were never yours. Be sensible at the right times - but totally silly the rest. Laugh as often as possible. Love, even if you have no idea of the meaning of the word. Don't lie, they all come out in the end. Remember- the past is the past for a very good reason. And only the lucky can make it into your future.

Move forwards. Don't stand still. Never judge, they could of been the the most wonderful person you never gave yourself a chance to meet.

Make your life, a life that is really worth living."

For now. That is it from me. Til next time. B✿